You're like the candy on Halloween,
Sensuously sweet,
But full of tricks
And the raindrops on a sunny day,
Showering sorrow,
But leaving traces of warm colors across the sky
The mismatched socks I love to wear,
Colorfully cute,
But slightly out of place
Or a red lush rose,
Beautifully blooming,
But dangerous to touch
Maybe a graceful white dove,
Patiently peaceful,
But never arriving in time
But most definitely bittersweet,
Perfectly pleasurable
With a heartbreaking aftertaste
Why
Why must I be the only one to say good things?
Because good things are hard for me to say,
they're harder to come by,
but you'd never understand
Why must I feel like I'm forcing you to be positive?
Maybe it's because you are,
I'm not a happy person, Jake,
but at least I thought I was trying for you.
Why am I the only one who seems to try to cheer the other one up?
I thought I had been trying,
That I would try to hide my disappointment to get you to be happy,
I guess I wasn't trying hard enough.
Why must you walk away when I'm feeling dow
Will you, shut the door for now,
I don't want them to se us together.
I need an escape,
from all the noise and talking people.
Cause my, heart is crashing down now,
there's just too many things to think about.
And you are the only one,
who makes me feel safe.
I need a protector,
just for a moment now.
Cause when I'm with you, when we're together,
all the weight is lifted off my shoulders.
Because you're not like them,
you holding in you arms instead of
pushing me away.
The pressure crushing down on me
just fades away.
And you are the only one,
who makes me feel this way.
Can you, just listen to me,
I've got so many things
No matter what you're gonna do,
no matter what you'll say.
Turn your head, please walk away,
I can't listen either way.
This time together we have spent, was it really all waste,
kisses, hugs and cherished moments,
can you really say goodbye?
It's cause you're
One of those guys,
can you say it's over without coming back?
One of those guys,
did you ever really love me?
One of those guys,
break my heart,
make it all fall apart.
But I still love you.
How can you keep thinking
that you can leave me lying weak,
drenched in all my sorrow,
and that I'll keep waiting for you to save me?
Do you think that I'm that shallow?
That
Ive always been too cold for you.
Even in the summer time, I never warmed up.
My skin was too pale,
My touch was too cold.
Too cold.
Remembered how you always made me wear your jacket?
The navy blue one you always have.
The one thats too big.
Whenever I put it on you laugh at me.
It makes me look so small.
I dont understand why youre the cold one now.
Your fingers that used to trace trails of fire over my skin,
Are so stiff that I cant even hold your hand.
Theyre cold as ice,
If not colder.
Your lips are chapped and pale blue.
I lean down to kiss them,
But never quite make it there.
I
One
Today they ask me where Im from.
What my name is.
Why Im here.
I dont speak a word to them,
Im overcome with fear.
I dream Im in the darkness,
Forever running,
But never moving.
I put one foot in front of the other
And remain stationary, solitary. . . I stand alone.
Two
They say I must remember.
That I cant have just appeared from nowhere.
But my mind is an empty slate,
Something dead and forgotten,
Non-existent in this space.
Tonight Im still running,
Its still dark.
Im